He Is Faithful, Period

I've been thinking a lot about the attributes of God lately. He is so many amazing things. He is the Creator, Redeemer, Provider, Healer and so many more. But there is one characteristic that rings in my head over and over again. He is FAITHFUL. In a world full of mistrust and selfishness the thought of faithfulness seems to be a distant reality. There has been many people in my past that have let me down in certain areas of my life but He will never ever let me down. No matter what circumstance comes my way He is faithful till the end of time and beyond.

When I am worried about something it gives me peace to know that God is faithful. This song by Cory Asbury always helps me.

Faithful to the End
Cory Asbury

The promise of your coming light
It burs so brightly in my mind
and all creation longs and waits
For the dawning of that day

And he will come riding on the clouds
With Justice in his heart
And a sword upon his side

And all will see the glory of this man
With fire in his eyes
He's jealous for his bride

He's faithful to the end
He's faithful to my heart
He's faithful to the end
He will come and marry me


He's faithful to the end
Hes faithful to my heart
Hes faithful to the end
He will come and marry me

Glory to the righteous one
Glory to the righetous one

He's faithful to the end
He's faithful to my heart
He's faithful to the end
He will come and marry me

Fear vs. Love

You wouldn't think that fear and love relate but they actually do. I have a friend who is becoming a nurse and she said something very interesting at bible study that made me start thinking. She took a mental health course and said that a person makes decisions based on fear or based on love. We're reading an amazing book called Passion and Purity by Elizabeth Elliot. So I've been thinking a lot about that concept. If we make our decisions based on fear then those decisions can't truely be good for us can they?

Take a person's self-esteem for example. If a person doesn't feel like they can be with someone who is prettier or better than them, will they raise their standards to be with them? No, they will give into their fear of rejection and lower their standards. Where as a person who makes decisions based on love will have a very different outcome. They will have a better sense of self-confidence and genuine care for others.

I have a lot of thoughts going through my mind but I thought this was an interesting theory to think about.

I really should blog more but unfortunately I have had like no time. Crazy crazy life.

Uncertainty

Uncertainty is the worse feeling in the world, not knowing what the future holds, no knowing what's going to happen. Uncertainty encourages fear and unbelief. I am an individual that hates not knowing what I'm supposed to do. I hate just going with the flow of things and unleashing control. I try so hard to trust God and in His will for my life yet lately all I feel is disappointment. I doubt myself...I start to feel like I'm doing God's Will and then someone says something otherwise. I've been so hurt and wounded in the past, I don't want to build up this wall and block everyone out. I am a transperant person and that tends to get me in trouble. I trust people at face value, I try to not second guess, is that really a bad thing? Ugh, I don't know...well I guess I'll just have to go to God about it.

Used to be

It used to be my drug
It used to be my antedote
Now its the exact thing that has left me broken

How can I ever trust again?
Cause I've been played over and over again
I don't want to be bitter but it hurts so bad

Feeling numb and alone
The tears keep flowing
Is it me?

I hate being a pawn in this game
Words said
My heart thrown too and fro

I try so hard
I strive for something better
Yet I keep getting this side of the game

I am angry
I have to protect myself from this so called antedote
I guess I just have to live with it

Move on past this pain
Wake up from a dream
Accept things as they come

It sucks
It hurts
Its a cycle that I want to leave...

Anna Hoffman